Ob-Gyn? Moving?

It’s official. Jordan and I finally are waiting for some good news from a couple of apartments that we applied for in our area. There is a three to four month waiting list, but keeping our heads held high and keeping our fingers crossed that everything works out. We can’t wait to be able to move out and get onto our own two feet. The idea of us being able to live on our own and becoming more and more of adults everyday is like a big weight on our shoulders is lifted.

 

I was supposed to have had my Ob-Gyn appointment on Monday, but there was a mishap on my insurance. I had to reschedule…it made me so mad and upset that I felt like seriously losing all control of my temper. I wanted to get it all done that day, I didn’t want to sit there and just hear that I couldn’t go because of my insurance and we sure didn’t have the money to pay for the visit. I was sincerely upset and I didn’t want to wait. But my mom called and had them reschedule for this upcoming Tuesday. I’m seriously just keeping my fingers crossed the insurance will be cleared by tomorrow and maybe I can get into my Ob by tomorrow afternoon or even hopefully Friday sometime. I don’t want to wait until Tuesday…we have already gotten a couple of things to do by then. I don’t want to have so much to do within a short period of times.

Nearly Two Months Left

Nearly 65 days before my due date and Evailyne can make her arrival anywhere between 7 weeks and 10 weeks. I’ll be 37 weeks on June 28th and my due date is on July 20th. It’s about time for the countdown and I’m beginning to really think that once June gets here, I’ll begin to countdown the days before Evailyne comes!

It’s getting closer and closer and yet it just still hasn’t kicked in that I’m going to be a mother. I wake up everyday more and more excited that I’ll be a mommy in less than two months. When will the reality of being a parent kick in?

Jordan and I are more than excited for all of this to be happening, but it just hasn’t hit that it’s actually our reality. When will all of this feel like reality to us? What? The crying, the diaper changing, the staying up all night with a newborn? Maybe. But I’m looking forward to waiting for every little bit of it to happen. Sure I’ll have my moments and I’ll complain, but I can’t wait to deal with the struggles of parenthood! It’s all going to be worth it.

A Quick Update.

I could say a million things right now and yet it still wouldn’t be enough for me to state the actuality of me being completely and utterly negative within my last few posts. What can I say? I’ve been on the warpath of hurt and wonders…So worried and scared lately that would throw me into negative thoughts. I don’t know what I could really say to make everything that I’d been feeling go away, but it’s definitely given me some closure. Some true closure that I needed, all long.

All in all, it’s definitely helped me though…Even though I’d been so upset with any type of thought…I’m beginning to get my mind to wrap around the idea of not having to be so scared. I’m giving myself the inside and outside closure that I’d wished I’d given myself a long time ago.

I didn’t want to be thinking of so many of the things I’d had on my mind. It simply just left me hanging every time I’d tried to let my mind wonder and work things out for themselves, but there was no hope.