Names. I've. Chosen.

July 25, 2010
Oka, so I have got a few names of mine that I truly adore and love. I have told my parent's a dozen times that these are the names I love and will choose for my children when I am ready to have children of my own. These are the different names that I can choose from, from first and middle name. Thought, I only plan to have three or four kids.

1. Elvis Garon
2. Jarvis Ray <--Chosen by my granny (& parents)
3. Jeremyiah Jude
4. Elayina Ada Mai
5. Zaqaryiah Lee
6. Evilynne LeAne
7. Inman Josiah Lee

Almost, 26 Hours

I do not know why. But, for some reason the past few nights it's either I haven't been able to get to sleep until around 4 or 5:00AM. Today, as of July 25, 2010. I have not been to sleep for almost 26 hours. I can feel my eyes being really heavy. You'd think I could sleep. But, I can't. I've tried to lie down and sleep the usual way I always do. I'm still up. Here it is 7:42AM and I'm on my laptop writing my usual blog probably writing about nothing. My habits of not being able to get enough sleep is actually causing me to lose interest in what I am doing. It's quite weird, because certain things I can't remember doing. I may be sitting here writing this, but I will probably eventually fall asleep in one point or another and not even remember writing this. But! All Well. I probably don't even make sense right now. The beauty of it is, I don't have to see what I am typing. I know where all the keys are.
I can feel my eye lids becoming quite heavy. Like they are being weighed down by 25-30 pounds weights. My Question is! How come I can't sleep? How come I can't get comfortable and try to get some rest? but, yeah I am struggling to stay awake. My reason? I don't have one.

a short poem

a short poem

i would like to be your everything
if you'd allow me.
i'd like to see you watching me when i am asleep
how you push the hair away from my eyes
the way you can hold me and everything will go right.
but where is our happy ending?
where does our fairytale begin?
-wrote by: courtney walker

Walking

I know one thing for sure. I am definitely doing myself good. For the past week me and my friend Kimmy has been walking every night around 8:00pm. I really enjoy walking more at night, because it's cooler and you don't get sweaty as much. Well me and her has been walking quite a lot for the past week. Just like tonight me and her walked for about two hours. It was a good workout for me. I really hope that walking all this much will help me lose at least a few pounds. I mean, i definitely do not wanna be skinny. I just want to be able to except myself..

Favorite Quotes from Moulin Rouge

My FAVORITE movie "Moulin Rouge" quotes (sayings) [the ones highlighted in RED are my favorite "favorite" ones.

• The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return.
• Days turned into weeks, weeks turned into months. And then, one not-so-very special day, I went to my typewriter, I sat down, and I wrote our story. A story about a time, a story about a place, a story about the people. But above all things, a story about love. A love that will live forever. The End.
• I owe you nothing. And you are nothing to me. Thank you for curing me of my ridiculous obsession with love.
• Come what may, I will love you until my dying day. 
• Tell our story Christian, that way I'll-I'll always be with you.
• No! Love is like oxygen
• Love is a many splendored thing. Love lifts us up where we belong. All you need is love.
• My gift is my song. And this one's for you. And You Can Tell Everybody That this is your song. It may be quite simple but now that it's done. I hope u don't mind I hope You don't mind That I put down in words... How Wonderful Life is Now you're in the world.
• Never fall for a women that sells herself, it always ends bad.
• Then I'll write a song and we'll put it in the show and whenever you sing it or hear it. Or whistle or hum it then you'll know. It'll mean that we love one another.

Few of my favorite sayings:)

These are a few sayings that I really find interesting. :)

1. i'd rather be hurt by the truth than pretected by a lie :(
2. i didn't write a whole paragraph for you to say "lol"
3. Parents call it "talkback" i call it Explaining.!
4. If ur so sorry, why did you do it again?
5. The urge to smile when your getting in trouble.
6. every girl needs a boy bestfriend :)
7. That 1 boy you probably will never loose feelings for <3 :/
8. I wish you lived closer :/
9. i've been caught smiling at texts:)
10. i stepped on a corn flake, does that mean i am a cereal killer?
11. your first love will always have a handprint on your heart. 
12. Waiting for a reply at night. Next morning , "DARN ! I FELL ASLEEP !"
13. i love listening to lies, when i know the truth
14. if i say "i love you" then i mean it
15. Love has no past tense. There's no such thing as "I loved" You either love someone or never did in the first place
16. 10 things you never knew you wanted until you had a dream
17. i think it's cute when a boy gets jealous
18. if you don't understand my silence, then won't understand my words.
19. you know my name, not my story

Long lost poem

this is actually one of my older poems, more like one the first ones i wrote. :)

i just found it..

another day goes by as though i don't know understand why.
the pattern of life itself has overcome the.
the true person lies within you, not as the person you reconize, but as a friend, as a life, as a hero.

Believin

Well being back for about a week now from Church Camp, and I feel I have definitely changed. I feel that I have definitely became a better person and I have also realized alot of things along the way. Everything around me has became a total wake up call. Knowing that certain things that I was doing before hand wasn't probably the best choice. but, now I have understood that I am forgiven and that no matter what I may do in the future. God will definitely lead me down the right path that's chosen for me.
and thank you, for those who believe in me and the ones who believe that I can still keep changing as long as I believe. For those who helped me in the past and who are willing to help me in the future. Thanks to all!

A Short Poem

it's easy to look up at a sky and say it's beautiful, to say the wind gives us chills, and that
the flowers smell so sweet. but, why isn't that easy to say those
things to someone that you like?

Written by: Courtney Walker
July 12, 2010

Family Vacation

Yesterday was really nice. We arrived here at the cabin and unpacked everything. Shortly afterwards, me and Erika got into the jacuzzi. It was cold at first but I got used to it all. It's great here. I really enjoy the cabin and later on, me and Erika may go walking on the trails. I'm just sitting here at the table watching Mollie in her crib..she's just jumping around and trying to talk.

Back Home from Camp

Carroll Co. , Grant Co. , & Frankfort, Ky

Summer Scream was truly a great experience for any young teenager. I really enjoyed myself and all the fun they provided for us. I got filled with the Holy Spirit, and spoke in tongues. I got saved of all the things that I had earlier regretted. I realized a lot of things that I had thought and wished I hadn't done wasn't all necessarily my fault. God loves me and all of you for who you are. I made a lot of friends and really enjoyed getting to other people from other parts of Kentucky, Tennessee, Illinois and Indiana. Also the Team Competition's were a blast, even though the first two days I couldn't do anything because my left leg had began to hurt me really bad. but I prayed and prayed until God healed me. I am so thankful that I feel I have learned and still have yet to learned about him. I really, really loved the Morning and Evening Sessions too. All the songs we're really touching. A few of my favorites we're Freedom is Here, You are Good, Jump Around, Second Chance, Hosanna. Sometimes we sing the song(s) Hosanna and Second Chance at my church (Family Worship) and I just truly love them. If you haven't heard any of these songs I surely recommend you too. I met some really cool people and I really enjoyed meeting Brooklynn Melton, April Heifner, and Bethany Alloway. I talked to them quite often throughout camp and it was truly an honor to meet them. I think that out of the Team Competitions that I got to do, my favorite was the Tug-A-War.