Eighteen. Pregnant & Feeling LOW

I’m only eighteen years old. God forbid, I’ll be nineteen once this baby is born. My fiance is seventeen and he’ll be eighteen Feb. 1. I’m 15 weeks pregnant and Jordan (my fiance’) had said that construction is his dream job and he’s thinking of taking a job with his mom’s boyfriend. Meaning, he’ll be gone a day or two at a time, sometimes if the job requires he’ll even be gone a week at a time. I don’t know what to do. I feel as if I’m going to wind up doing all of this a lone.

I’m not crazy, but I feel as if he’s finally beginning to not care anymore on how something effects me. I don’t care about money, or how much he’ll be bring home. I don’t care if it’s almost 3x more than what he would be receiving at a restaurant here in our town. I don’t want to lose him and this is exactly what is going to wind up happening. I’m going to lose the love of my life and the father of my child. It’s like my opinion just doesn’t matter to him. I just don’t know what I’m supposed to do. He doesn’t understand that with him telling me that he is going to do it rather I like it or not, just makes me feel as low as dirt. Well beneath the soil.

By time my baby comes, I’m afraid he or she isn’t going to have a father. He or she isn’t going to have a stable home with two loving parents. I’m afraid that my baby will end up wondering what went wrong in he/her mommy and daddy’s life that I won’t have an answer. I may be just over-thinking all of this, but it’s what I feel. This has been going on for about a week now and everytime we begin the conversation of us talking about him going and doing construction, I can’t put in my own two cents. He doesn’t know how much all of this is effecting me. How deep inside he doesn’t understand that I have the strangest feeling that we’re not meant to be as much as we thought we did. When you’re in a relationship, engaged, or marriage…you’re significant other’s opinions matter too. And in this situation, I just don’t matter to him anymore.

Is there is anybody out there that can help me? Is there anybody that can help me through this? I feel like I’m going to lose all control of myself, my life, and my child?