We had a fight the other night. Yet again, this wasn’t a fight that either one of us had started. Jordan’s ex, which I would rather leave unnamed. She caused us to fight. Now, she had said many times over that she couldn’t have started our fight, well she did. I have access to his Facebook as he does mine and I read his messages. Well, she had a tendency to write him and trying to hide messages within a message. Get my drift? Well, I will tell you this…I do not care that they’re friends. It’s a good thing that he can stay friends with his ex-girlfriends. I just sincerely hate it, hate it with a passion that she doesn’t seem to understand when to stop or understand that he is my man, now! He isn’t going anywhere in any point of time.
I am the woman wearing his ring, and he isn’t going anywhere. Like I’ve said though, it does not bother me that he’s friends with her. It just really gets beneath my skin that she just NOT know how to stop….a relationship consists of two people, not three! Jordan has made it clear that I am the woman he’s chosen and it’s just something she really needs to get over. I really don’t appreciate it that she’s even sent him messages saying of how apparently I have stolen him away from her, well newsflash. I guess so, but you see who he is staying with now?
Now, I am not a negative person. But I am a pessimist (someone who thinks negative first, before positive) and I do believe that I love Jordan with all of my heart and I sometimes don’t believe he really understands that she is just a crack in the road. She’s caused two fights between us so far, and it makes me wonder how many more she is going to try to damage.
The funniest thing is, when Jordan and she began to argue over who he was going to choose…she’d begin to insult me. Okay, well her argument was with Jordan first off and then she drags me into it. If I did steal Jordan away from her, I am NOT sorry about it. He’s mine and he’s just one man that I’m not going to let walk out of my life. He’s the best thing that could ever possibly have walked into it and he’s the one man that I expect to give me his last name.
It’s excruciating to deal with such stupidity. Once you’ve realized that someone is in a relationship, that is not an open/closed sign to walk in and try to change things. Those two human beings are together for a reason and there is always a reason why you’re past relationships don’t work out. I know I’m ranting on now…but if only you knew how much she bugs me. That one little fact that it’s twice that she’s caused a dangerous path in my eyes. If she thinks I’m so bad about apparently stealing her man, then she needs to back off and begin to realize real quick that is will NOT be much longer before I make myself known.
Jordan has handled it long enough and I’m about to step it. No, I’m not going to be negative about it, but I will make my name known to her and make her believe that Jordan will NOT be hers anymore in any time or universe. She makes me blood boil and if only Jordan really understood how bad it hurts me to have to deal with it almost on a daily basis…I don’t believe he would actually really understand himself.
It hurts me to the extent to where I sometimes feel as if I can’t breathe that the mere mentioning of her name is a destruction to me. Her name, her face, even her little messages make me want to scream and I do believe that it’s going to wind up making me go crazy because it isn’t going to be much longer before I begin to give up on it….Not give up on Jordan or us, but give up on her…I will just begin to fade away and it will wind up where I will not have a single feeling towards anything. I’m going to be numb, trying to defy one simple thing will cause me to totally forget how to feel.
I am the woman wearing his ring, and he isn’t going anywhere. Like I’ve said though, it does not bother me that he’s friends with her. It just really gets beneath my skin that she just NOT know how to stop….a relationship consists of two people, not three! Jordan has made it clear that I am the woman he’s chosen and it’s just something she really needs to get over. I really don’t appreciate it that she’s even sent him messages saying of how apparently I have stolen him away from her, well newsflash. I guess so, but you see who he is staying with now?
Now, I am not a negative person. But I am a pessimist (someone who thinks negative first, before positive) and I do believe that I love Jordan with all of my heart and I sometimes don’t believe he really understands that she is just a crack in the road. She’s caused two fights between us so far, and it makes me wonder how many more she is going to try to damage.
The funniest thing is, when Jordan and she began to argue over who he was going to choose…she’d begin to insult me. Okay, well her argument was with Jordan first off and then she drags me into it. If I did steal Jordan away from her, I am NOT sorry about it. He’s mine and he’s just one man that I’m not going to let walk out of my life. He’s the best thing that could ever possibly have walked into it and he’s the one man that I expect to give me his last name.
It’s excruciating to deal with such stupidity. Once you’ve realized that someone is in a relationship, that is not an open/closed sign to walk in and try to change things. Those two human beings are together for a reason and there is always a reason why you’re past relationships don’t work out. I know I’m ranting on now…but if only you knew how much she bugs me. That one little fact that it’s twice that she’s caused a dangerous path in my eyes. If she thinks I’m so bad about apparently stealing her man, then she needs to back off and begin to realize real quick that is will NOT be much longer before I make myself known.
Jordan has handled it long enough and I’m about to step it. No, I’m not going to be negative about it, but I will make my name known to her and make her believe that Jordan will NOT be hers anymore in any time or universe. She makes me blood boil and if only Jordan really understood how bad it hurts me to have to deal with it almost on a daily basis…I don’t believe he would actually really understand himself.
It hurts me to the extent to where I sometimes feel as if I can’t breathe that the mere mentioning of her name is a destruction to me. Her name, her face, even her little messages make me want to scream and I do believe that it’s going to wind up making me go crazy because it isn’t going to be much longer before I begin to give up on it….Not give up on Jordan or us, but give up on her…I will just begin to fade away and it will wind up where I will not have a single feeling towards anything. I’m going to be numb, trying to defy one simple thing will cause me to totally forget how to feel.
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