Finally..Wondering.

For the past few days, it's been like I don't know what's going on in this world around me. Lately, it's just been a non-stop nightmare to me. If it's not a friend, it's my so called boyfriend. I say "so-called" because it's like sometimes it's like we're on a rollercoaster. My life has been slowly pulling apart from me. I know what I want and I'm going wind up fighting for it in the end. I'm finally becoming happy again, after three months of suffering and non-stop crying from being hurt. I've finally found someone else that makes me even happier than Dylan did. Zack makes me happy and when I'm with him, there is no going back.
There isn't a day that goes by now that I don't think of where me and him are leading. I feel like I can be myself around him and it's not going to go wrong or bad; but, everyday I spend with him...I live it as if it were my last day with him. You never know what a day can bring or take away, so why worry when you have that one moment you can always cherish. That one moment you spend together, just as if it were going to be the end of the world.

My days are getting shorter and my mind is beginning to wonder. 

I know what I may be doing is wrong; but, I don't care how I put myself into bad situations. I'm putting myself through all these places and feelings for the simple fact and reason that I am caring more and more about a certain person that I'm determined not to lose. I've began this journey and I am going to work at it. There is no turning back for me now. Ever since me and Dylan broke up and we no longer speak even one word to each other anymore, it's like I feel as if I'm falling in love...again. They say, you can't really know what Love is when you're young; but, when I was seventeen...I felt Love for the first time and it was with the wrong person. Now, I've met someone completely opposite of Dylan and he makes me even happier than he ever would. I don't feel out of place when I'm with him, I'm myself. I'm definitely...falling in Love...again.