Illusion

Sometimes I feel like ending it all with shattered glass upon the window. With the shadows upon my last breath and the whispers within my mind. It's all going to be an ending disaster. Lately the pain has began to sink inside, creating a illusion of fear...the fear of never returning to reality. I fear my life itself is trying to tell me something but I can't work the right buttons to make it all go. It all feels like my life has come to a dead stop...a dead end leading nowhere. Something, someone out there isn't ready to be discovered, not just yet. I know there is something pulling me towards a path I'm scared to take. A never-ending road. Like a totally different world beyond this one. Giving us all a weird look on life within our own souls given to us, for a very good reason. If only each and every one of us had a soul and heart to look into each other to see what the other person was truly and painfully feeling.

A question to think about is: Do you ever look at someone and wonder what there lives are truly like? Like it would be to be in their shoes? Would you ever think about giving up to understand why some of us treat others the way we do?

I don't understand is, if the world was to end tomorrow, I just wish we could of found that one true love at the end of the road and wonder what it truly felt like to be loved for once and feel the emotions. To be loved for who we truly are and there would be no regret within our souls, nothing to lose or regret. At the end of the day, daily..I sit back and wonder what did I do wrong today? Why am I still sitting here and wishing my life was like a fairytale? Why aren't with someone that loves for who I am and thank God for it? I don't know. I just haven't gotten my chance in the spotlight of anything. I haven't accomplished anything, not yet.

Crying and eating isn't always the explanation for anything we do and say. Some of us, speak out of hate when we're around people. Some of us speak out of fear. And some. Well some of us just don't speak at all. Not being loved or wanted can/will cause some of us to do some of the most excruciating things. There are people out there that will go through life normal. Until, they are behind closed doors. Then they begin to be in a depressed stage. Some of us, just don't want to feel like a part of the world. To be alone, is the only thing most of us have anymore. When other people see this person, they brush it off and don't give a dang*. But, do you even realize what this world and emotions have done to these people? Do you understand most of us, are being tortured from the outside-in. To be wanted and love is all the most of us want and need at the moment. We created our own little world, because you decide to push most of us out. You create an illusion to block us. To most of us, it isn't (and shouldn't be) based on looks. It's what's within the soul and heart. What comes from within is what counts.

Think about the most things in life. Being cherished and loved for who you are is the most precious thing we could ever look for in this lifetime. Think about what you're doing before you ever begin to do it. It could change your life without you even knowing it. The slightest thing could help change your life around and maybe become something and someone that will maybe be important in this world. We're all special in our own ways; and we're all created to be who we are rather it's skinny, chubby, big-boned, or even fat. But we're all loved and cherished in one way or another. There is and will be someone out there for everyone, no matter what other people say by saying you'll never get anyone. It isn't true. We're all pretty, gorgeous, or even beautiful in our own way. We just have to find our inter-beauty. Our true path toward destiny.


Thanks,

Courtney Walker