Everything Around...

School is going good, Good grades in all my classes. I'm loving my Junior year. It's really began off to a good start. The only thing I don't like is the fact that I see him everyday. .If I like him so much, I don't think I can honestly go everyday single day without saying something. I want to tell him, but there isn't probably even a fraction that he would be interested in me. I'm not being negative about myself, it's just his type doesn't fall for the type of person I am. I'm beginning to come out of my comfort zone, so I'm opening up more. I'm beginning to sing alittle more. and open up my mind to new experiences. Even though whenever I come home I am always exhausted. Going to bed around 10:30-11:00pm then having to wake up at 5:30am. Zeesh! By time school is out all I want to do is go home and relax. Along with homework it's all really tiresome. With everything that I am doing this year, This truly is the hardest year so far. But, also the funnest. (I can't remember if funnest is a word or not). Anyways, all in all I seriously and honestly love Junior year 2010-11.
Signing off, this was Courtney. Thanks for reading.

Family:)

This is me and the most important thing in my life right now. Me and My little Cousin Mollie:) She is so precious, and the only thing that actually keeps me alive. I didn't think I could ever have a more fun, and enjoyable time with anyone other than my friends. Until, Mollie was born. When Mollie was born she became my best friend. I really enjoy watching her and spending time with her. She has taught me so much within the last nine months. She's really helping me learn the things I will need to know in the future for my own children. Mollie, your cousin loves you very much. Don't forget that. I can't wait until you get older and we can begin to play games together and I shall be there anytime you need me. You're my favorite little cousin. I honestly can't believe you're already almost a year old. I love you, Mollie.

Love, P.C.

[♥]Lost?[♥] Friendship

This video is dedicated to my ex-bestfriend.
I made this video just for the fact that we we're bestfriends and when the friendship ended. i had a feeling it wasn't going to be the same again, as i was making this video for some reason i began crying. i didn't know why, but i cried from the moment i began making it until around 6:30pm. I had the strongest feeling that we weren't going to work out as friends again, because i felt like i wasn't a good enough friend for her. she seemed happier with others than she ever was with me. We began to slowly fade apart, as i began to notice the strange reactions, We hardly hung out with eachother in the end, hardly text. Hardly spoke.
The feeling you have right before something bad happens truly makes you not want to know what will happen. No one wants to lose a best friend, but i didn't feel like a best friend to her. The End, I felt like I was a side puppet. She wasn't as happy being my friend as she looked when she was with her other friends.
I wanted to throw the stuff away that she made me, gave but I can't do it. I tried to burn it, but I still couldn't do it. I don't know what I am going to do with any of it. I don't want to keep anything that was a memory of being her friend because every moment I think about the good times, it isn't good memories. I felt like I was holding her back from doing whatever she wanted to do. The heartbreak I went through. Of course she was there. but, in some hands I couldn't help her the way she needed to be helped. just brings tears to my eyes and a sick feeling in my stomach. I can't bare to see anything..Anymore.

By: Courtney Walker
END!

Liking Him....Moving On!

I can't help by the way I feel about him. I thought maybe I could just stop liking him and maybe move on. That didn't work. What would happen if he knew I liked him? Would he like me back? Would he even care? OR: Would he think I was a freak? I don't understand why guys can't just like girls for personality or sense of humor, while others are wanting popularity as a bonus. I seriously, honestly don't understand any of this. Sometimes I can look at him and try to think...why do I not like him? Why can't I just say "Okay, You don't know me or like me why can't I just forget about you?" Why isn't it that easy. There has to be something that maybe I am holding onto. Sometimes, I feel weird. because I feel as if he and his friends know that I like him and they talk about me. And I don't mean in a good way. Maybe truly, they do think I am crazy for liking such a cute, popularity boy wishing for that perfect moment. The moment where everything will be okay and will all go right. But, deep down inside I know that isn't going to happen. But, that brings back to why can't I move on? Is there something I am missing? Is it so hard to like a boy one minute then turn around the next and like someone else? I guess so. All the feelings and emotions that pass through just don't give me enough evidence. Evidence to see if there is any possibilities..

Carroll Vs. Gallatin

Tonight's Football game was GREAT!
Carroll County Vs. Gallatin County. Whoa. Carroll County! WON!
Yes, so we have won both our games so far this season. We're off to a really good start. It was all fun, I was hanging out with different people tonight. It was kind of hard to hang out with all of them though, because some of them went one way and the others went the other. It was all complicated. One minute I would be hanging out with Sara, then Kimmy, Bryan, Shawn, Amber, Haileigh, and many others. Shoo! It was all exhausting though. My Aunt (who is younger than me) is staying tonight too. She stayed with my last night while we had the Bon Fire. I'm guessing she had a good time at the game tonight, I mean I didn't hear her complain about anything so everything was good from there. All in all..It was a pretty cool and exciting night.

Football Game [Update]

Last Friday:
 August 20th, 2010


We had our first football game this day, It was great. Carroll County Vs. Bracken County.
We Won! 37-0

Go Panthers!

Anyways, Afterwards we had our first dance of the season. It was quite exciting too. All the dancing and such. It was all definitely better than the previous years. Junior year has positively been way better than the past two years that I have spent in high school.

[Caterpiller & it's Death]

[True Story]
My Friend Cynthia told me this. (Yes, She done it)

A Caterpiller was on the ceiling, and Cynthia was trying to see it with a flashlight. When she turned the flashlight towards the Caterpiller, the little thing looked into the light and fell. Committing his/her own little suicide.


[Cynthia told me this story in third period] Lol.

It's Great!

As of everything, school is great. My junior year has already started off way better then my freshman and sophomore year did. All my classes, seem to more fun. Even though with me being a junior. Junior year is the hardest grade of all the four years. I totally understand everything so far, and am really enjoying all my teachers. My favorite class so far is definitely Spanish1. Mr. McEuen. Some people say they hated it when they had this class, but I totally enjoy and understand everything so far. Nothing is coming off to hard, or to difficult for my to understand. I know later on in the year it's all going to begin to get alot harder, but as long as I keep my cards in a straight line, then I believe I am conqure it all.

today third period

Sitting in third period. and I'm being called an idiot by an idiot. How do you like them apples? Do you like them baked or satayed? lol
Today really isn't that bad today, although I wish this class would move alittle faster. It's Credit Recovery and all we do is sit on the computer and make up the credit's we haven't gotten. Of course Cynthia is crazy. and well there isn't much to do there. haha. Only four minutes until fourth period. Can't wait!, I really enjoy Biology