[♥]Lost?[♥] Friendship

This video is dedicated to my ex-bestfriend.
I made this video just for the fact that we we're bestfriends and when the friendship ended. i had a feeling it wasn't going to be the same again, as i was making this video for some reason i began crying. i didn't know why, but i cried from the moment i began making it until around 6:30pm. I had the strongest feeling that we weren't going to work out as friends again, because i felt like i wasn't a good enough friend for her. she seemed happier with others than she ever was with me. We began to slowly fade apart, as i began to notice the strange reactions, We hardly hung out with eachother in the end, hardly text. Hardly spoke.
The feeling you have right before something bad happens truly makes you not want to know what will happen. No one wants to lose a best friend, but i didn't feel like a best friend to her. The End, I felt like I was a side puppet. She wasn't as happy being my friend as she looked when she was with her other friends.
I wanted to throw the stuff away that she made me, gave but I can't do it. I tried to burn it, but I still couldn't do it. I don't know what I am going to do with any of it. I don't want to keep anything that was a memory of being her friend because every moment I think about the good times, it isn't good memories. I felt like I was holding her back from doing whatever she wanted to do. The heartbreak I went through. Of course she was there. but, in some hands I couldn't help her the way she needed to be helped. just brings tears to my eyes and a sick feeling in my stomach. I can't bare to see anything..Anymore.

By: Courtney Walker
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