Matthew!

A poem by Courtney Walker


I woke up this morning thinking you was beside me.
I miss your strong arms holding me in the morning.
Your voice shooting like rockets up my spine.
The smell of your cologne when you hugged me.
Your gorgeous hazel eyes
Your smile.
Everything about you was perfect.

What happened?
Why did it all have to happen?
It's been exactly one year today...since your death.
Your beautiful and wonderful son learned his first words.
Jason (our son) made me cry today.
His first words were daddy.
Matt, I Love You, I Miss You.
Why did he have take you?
Even though it's been a year. it's so hard to live with the fact that your gone.
Jason reminds me so much of you.

He has your hair, your eyes.
even your smile.
I think if i hadn't told you that i was pregnant
This would of never of happened.
It's my fault.
It's my fault your gone.
Why did I have to be so stupid??
Why couldn't it have been me?

He doesn't understand that all this is killing me.
The beauty of it is...Jason is like a reincarnation of you.
He's like you in every way.
No matter what he does. He's like you 100%
Matthew! please...forgive me for all i have caused you.