January 26, 2011.

Have you ever sat down and thought about one thing that you knew would maybe end badly in the long run? Have you ever wanted to say "Yes" so badly you didn't know how and when was the best time to do it? Well what am I suppose to do when I find out recently that a friend of mine has just stabbed me in the back with a sharp piece of pain I didn't think I'd feel again. The tragedy of you wanting to wait for the moment that it will be okay to say "yes" sends you into a state of mind. The waiting process is too late. Too late to make a move, too late to say the one word you wish you could of said four and half years ago before everything...went bad.
The one time I thought I could be happy again, and nothing comes of it. Nothing good comes of it and it all ends badly for me. 

Attitude.

I found this statement about Attitude a very open and truthful.
-"The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, the education, the money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people thank or say or do. It is more important than appearance giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company.....a church...a home. The remarkable thing is we have a change everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past...we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing ca can do is play on the one strong we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it. And so it is with you...we are in charge of our Attitudes."

by: 

Charles R. Swindoll

I found this a remarkable statement of what this guy though an Attitude was all about. The true understanding of it. Helped. 

A New Change

So I've got a new look to my blog. What do you think of the new layout? I was kind of getting tired of the black and dull look. Well I thought making it lighten up was a better idea of it. Attract interest.

Catching Up.

It's been awhile since I last wrote on my blog. I guess I just haven't had much to say. Have you ever had the feeling that you could sit for hours talking about your problems or what's on your mind; but, yet you can't find a way to say it as briefly as possible? Well I just couldn't find the right way to explain what was on my mind. However, I do have a few things that I know I can make a good conversation out of. Let's See.

I'm Starting the 2011 Adventure off as a great way to say it's a new beginning and my blog will soon become a newer and better of what I have written in the past. So all I can and may say is Let's begin.

Over the past few months I have been doing the usual thing any normal teenager does. I have been writing....trying to write my novel. I have written about six short stories, but can't yet get the writing a novel down pat. It's easy. All it is, is a longer version of a short story. Just more writing. I pick up my pencil and begin writing; but, then begin to second thoughts about what I have written. My mom and some other special thanks. They say that when you are writing. Don't stop and re-read what you wrote. Just keep writing. If it doesn't sound good when it's finished, then make the necessary changes.

a poem.

f i closed my eyes forever. would you even care?sitting alone in a crowded room, like there's no tomorrow(:where has my life gone? where is it going? where am i suppose to end up in six to twelve years? all i wanna do-all i wanna do is......love you. 

-written by: courtney walker

Monday. Dec. 13

Tomorrow I go to the doctor for me being sick for like three weeks and for my x-ray. My back has been aching for about three months now. Nothing I try works. I've tried icy hot, ice cold packs, and hot packs, but nothing seems to sooth the pain. I'll be glad when we go tomorrow we'll find out what's actually wrong with my back.

My little Phobia

So I found out recently. Well yesterday actually that I have a phobia. Didn't think I had any and I probably have more. But, anyways. I found out that I have Xerophobia. It's a fear of dryness. Yes. You could probably call me a dry freak. I can't stand to be dry in any place. I'm constantly getting my hands wet or my feet...Trying to stay moist. Well I guess it's not as bad as some phobia's. I mean, some are really weird and silly, but hey! There are people out there that have those silly phobia's.

Tobacco Festival Week

It's been so long since I last wrote in here. Well to sum things up, nothing really has happened in the last for weeks that I haven't written. 

School is beginning to get hectic. Stressful, and exhausting. I don't know anymore. Sometimes I am in a good mood and other's it's like I cant begin to explain the stress that flows through me during school. Shoo. 

Next week on the 13th, I have to go to the doctor after school. For physical therapy. I wish they would figure out what was wrong with my back. It has been hurting me for almost 3 weeks now. 

Well, I haven't really got much to say now. It's just to much to talk about sometimes..So I will just sum it all up. 

Everything Around...

School is going good, Good grades in all my classes. I'm loving my Junior year. It's really began off to a good start. The only thing I don't like is the fact that I see him everyday. .If I like him so much, I don't think I can honestly go everyday single day without saying something. I want to tell him, but there isn't probably even a fraction that he would be interested in me. I'm not being negative about myself, it's just his type doesn't fall for the type of person I am. I'm beginning to come out of my comfort zone, so I'm opening up more. I'm beginning to sing alittle more. and open up my mind to new experiences. Even though whenever I come home I am always exhausted. Going to bed around 10:30-11:00pm then having to wake up at 5:30am. Zeesh! By time school is out all I want to do is go home and relax. Along with homework it's all really tiresome. With everything that I am doing this year, This truly is the hardest year so far. But, also the funnest. (I can't remember if funnest is a word or not). Anyways, all in all I seriously and honestly love Junior year 2010-11.
Signing off, this was Courtney. Thanks for reading.