Thinking of which?

Okay, so maybe I am going nuts. I do not know what is going on or what I could be feeling; but, I have this strange feeling out of no where that something is going on. Maybe, I'm feeling or thinking of something that I shouldn't. I feel as if something is going on, not directly in a bad way; but, like something is happening. I feel like this only temporary. Why? I'm not sure. I don't know why I'm having these feelings like this isn't going to last forever. I don't want to lose this feeling that I have created and worked so hard for, it isn't easy trying to ignore the worst; but, sometimes you feel as if it's your only option. 

To Be...LOVED?

Being lost within the total destruction of this world isn't the only thing that seems to be ending humanity. Some of us begin to wonder if there are any possibilities of love, and being trusted. What does it truly feel like to be loved by the one and only guy that you had liked since maybe Kindergarden? What would it be like to be in a fairytale? Some of us feel as if we're being shredded of love and torture. Some of us don't feel like there is anything besides love in our lives...and it begins to eat at us. Begins to eat at us, and tear our souls to tiny bits before there isn't anything left. Can any of really explain the definition of L.O.V.E? I don't think we can, because to me, there is no pure definition of it. Each and everyone of us have our own definition of what love is and why it is what it is. You could say most of us are just practicing until we meet and have the actual person we're looking for, just haven't found them yet.

Courtney L. Walker