Let me tell you a story that long-------over due.
Fair Warning!
This may be a long story...
July 16th, 2011.
That's the day I met Jack. I was working in Burger King one after noon (and this has probably been stated before, but you don't know the story of where this is leading) and he was with a group of his friends. There were about six or seven of them. The reason actually that they'd been down there was, my cousin Michelle was talking to this guy that had gone to school with her brother (not by blood), Zack. His name was Merril and he seemed like a good guy at the time.
Anyway, he arrived with six or seven of his friends and Michelle had gone over to talk to Merril. I was working as usual, just cleaning up the bar and counters when Michelle walked back behind the counter at me and say that one of the guys was checking me out. I didn't believe her because I'm not typically or usually the girl that a guy checks out. She left me alone for about two minutes before she walked back over to me and said that the guy wanted my number. It kind of felt like I was in a movie where a woman minds her own business and then all of a sudden this good looking guy walks in. I wasn't though and this was my reality. I looked over at her and said "I'm sorry, I don't have minutes on my phone". I was obviously lying because I had just been texting her earlier that day. . .She smiled at me and then said "That's alright, I'll get it from the office" and I followed her and kept asking her...Why? Why does this guy want my number? She just kept telling that he thought I was cute and he wanted to talk to me. So, he ended up with my number and we texted for the next couple of hours until I got off.
A Day passed and then my cousin, Michelle texted me and asked if I wanted to hang out for the night. I said Yes because I really wanted to get to know this guy. He already had my number, so why not? He came and picked me up that afternoon around 4:00pm and we went to the park. We were acting like kids and then I can still remember the way he smelled. We were on top of this children's playground and he didn't really look at me once, but Merril and Michelle were all over each other. It turned 8:00pm quicker than we imagined and me and Jack walked over to the swings, we were just swinging when we began talking. I asked him what he was looking for. Why he wanted my number? He had told me he wanted my number because he thought I'd be a good bang. (REALLY? That's it?) I just went silent and didn't say another word and he looked over at me and asked "Are you alright?" and I just nodded my head. I got up and walked over to the nearest tree. He got up and walked behind me and then he kissed me a few times, wanting me to be yet just another girl to add to his list. We walked to his truck, sat there for almost an hour and never once did I do a thing with him. We just kissed a few times, but of course...he wanted more. It never happened that night.
A WEEK LATER:
Michelle wanted to go up to Merril's and hang out with him and Jack. I said, okay and we went up there. When we arrived there I sat down in Merril's living room and everyone was just looking at me. Merril's mom looked over at me and smiled, then Merril's dad glanced at me and asked "You Jack's girl?" I just smiled. I had never thought of it like that...Merril looked over at me and said "yeah, Jack's girl of the week" and I felt really crummy. After about fifteen minutes, we drove to Jack's place, because that's where we were staying. Jack wasn't home because he was working, but I stayed up on the couch all the way up until 6am when he walked through the front door. He seemed really tired and he sat on the opposite of the room. I looked over at him "You can come over here and use the blanket, it's pretty cold in here" I said. He walked over and then I was just looking over at him..I didn't mean to stare, but there was something about him. One thing lead to another and the night became a little fest where it just lead to things I didn't think would happen..and that's all it was..we just were a one-night stand type of deal. I thought...I could have honestly thought that I was going to have a good guy finally, but turned out he was just another guy for sex.
July 25th, 2011
Michelle and Merril were still seeing eachother and I had my car. I drove Michelle up to Owen county multiple times so we could all hang out and it didn't bother me. When we went to Merril's, I sat on the chair right in the door way and every one was just staring at me, once again..but I noticed one guy staring at me. His name was Kalab. An eighteen year old, good looking man. I kept looking up and down at the floor, I was just enjoying watching Jayden (Michelle's baby). Michelle and I stayed there for about an hour, while I had noticed Kalab looking at me a few times. .I had chosen to get up and go to car and wait for Michelle to be done. About fifteen minutes later, Michelle had came out with Jayden and we headed home. "Kalab thinks your cute" Michelle said. I looked over at her and smiled. I was wondering.."Which one was Kalab?" and he said "The guy that was sitting right a crossed from you...the one without a shirt" I smiled and I was grinning ear to ear.
Michelle had went to Owen county without me one night and Kalab had been saying that he liked me. Michelle gave him my number and we began talking. It wasn't long before we decided to date. August 4th, 2011. It only lasted a week..Things just weren't good with us at all...He said he didn't want just sex..but he did.
September 16th, 2011.
I will always remember this day. No matter what happens, this will be the most beautiful day of my life. I remember...
Jack texted me..Yes, the one from the beginning of the story. He texted me and we just were chatting at first and then he said he had a friend that wanted to meet me. I smiled..I texted him back and asked "Who? Who wants to meet me?"
Jack: "His name is Jacob"
Me: "Cool, what does he look like?"
Jack: "Hold on I'll send a picture"
Me: "Oka"
I waited for about ten minutes and he said sent me an image. "Wow!" It was all I could say. The guy was gorgeous. I knew I needed to talk to this dude.
Me: "He's really cute."
Jack: "He thinks you're really pretty"
Me: "How does he know what I look like?"
Jack: "He seen you on my friends list on Facebook"
Me: "Oh Okay"
The conversation went on for about an hour, then Jack texted me back and said that Jacob wanted my number. I told him to give it to him. Jacob and I had talked for a good hour and then he asked where I lived. I told him and he said that he was at the GYM in my county and asked if we wanted to hang out. I told him I'd love too, so I got up and changed my clothes, put on makeup and took a shower. I was ready to meet this guy.
Later That Night
When they picked me up at first we went to the city park. Jacob and Jack were showing off in front of me. It was hilarious. I looked over at Jacob and said "Oh, please you fight like a girl" I was trying to rally him up and get him laughing. Then he came over to me and began to make short shots at me...and he was strong. He looked at me and smiled. He picked me up above his shoulders and then tackled me (gently) to the ground. Just sitting on top of me and he smiled. Later when we relocated to Butler Park, this is when things go interesting. Jack had left us alone on the look-out and we were just talking. "I'm scared of getting hurt again. I don't want things to go bad for me" I looked down at the ground and looked as if I was going to cry. He was standing between my legs as I was sitting on the stone and he had his hands upon my legs. "You're not going to get hurt, I promise. I'm not like that" he said. I smiled at him..and I wanted to believe every bit of it. My friend Brittany had went along with us. That away, Jack could have someone to hang out with me. It had to probably be one of the best nights of my life.
To that day, me and Jacob continued to start..I remember how our relationship was growing strong! In April, I began dating one of my exes, Jim. Jacob found out and he was furious because he was upset I was with another man. He had never told me that we were to become more. When he told me he wanted to start out friendship over, he hadn't told me why? He made it clear when I was with Jim and the feelings began to grow for him. I wanted to be with Jacob so badly, but it never happened. I was hypothetically his, but not really. Eleven months of my life was wasted on this man. Because he had told me he wanted to start our friendship over so we could be together. WE wanted to be together, but then came the time where his job was his excuse for everything. I was fading from him and I was losing it. I couldn't bare to keep talking to him, but feel as if he was ignoring me too. Eleven months...and my heart was beginning to fall for him. I got away when I could, I couldn't bare looking at his image anymore and dealing with the pain that he was giving me. In June of 2012, I told Jacob I couldn't deal with it anymore. Until he knew what he wanted, I couldn't bare to be with him, but YET NOT be with him. I feel like I fell in love with him, but unfortunately the feeling's weren't mutual.
THE END
A True Story by Patricia Walker
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