Make it Wonderous

Life is beautiful and imaginable. 
No single person should have to go through life wondering if there is a single purpose that doesn't involve pain. 
A girl has but one single tear run down her face as if there isn't a such thing as passion. 
A person shouldn't lay in their bed crying their eyes out, wondering what would have happened if things had been different. 
We shouldn't have to live day by day wondering what if? 
We should live life as if it were our last. 
Make it just the beginning of life itself. 
Make it beautiful. 

No One:

Something to live by;


No one should have to go through life wondering "What if?" 

it's simple

I honestly have to sit here and be honest with every single person here reading this. I have noticed that my posts have became nothing but a soap opera of life to ya'll. No where did I mean to honestly do such things; but, it seemed like the best thing I knew how to do was speak of personal problems without thinking of consequences.
Well, all in all, things have definitely became a whole lot easier for me. Without worrying about stupidity of someone else's actions other than myself. 

WHY? by: Patricia Walker

I never asked to be born. I never really asked to grow up in this so called world. I never understood the meaning of life nor did I understand what love was. I would try and scream out your name wondering if there truly were an answer to anything I had to asked.

Sometimes, I feel like the shattered glass upon the floor just isn't shattered because it's been broken; but, because there was a meaning behind it. There is a meaning, right? I'm not imagining the shattered glass, I'm not pretending it doesn't exist; but, I'm seeing it as it just happened. I'm seeing a couple screaming and fighting for their life together. I'm wondering, is there a life out there? A life beyond all the pain. I want to be able to pick up the piece, could I possibly glue them back together or do I have to start over from scratch? 

I feel like I can sit here and scream! Scream out your name. Scream at the top of my lungs and no one will hear me, not even you..the one person I'd thought would hear me, doesn't even know I'm in the same room. Someone, just someone to look up from the world and see me with crystal like tears fading as they drop from my eyes, shivers that shrine throughout my body with pain and loss. 

The creative mind can come up with over a million possibilities; but, I seem to be finding the same answer everytime. Why? Why seems to be always the one word you use a lot and it always seems to be the question we ask the most so Why is it that the answer is always YOU? 

So Close, Yet so Far Away

It's February 10, 2012 and we only have about 63 days until school gets out. Cannot believe that we're already so close to graduating. As of right now, we graduate on May 27th, 2012. The last day of school is May 21st, 2012. I never knew that Senior year could ever possibly fly by so quickly.
Everything so far has been such a good turn out for 2012; but, I know there are going to be some downfalls. As follows, there are many things that are happening right around the corner.

• March - Tongue Piercing
• April 6th - 18th birthday
• April 27th - Prom
• May 18th or 20th - Senior Grad night
• May 21st - Last day of School
• May 27th - Graduation
• June - Graduation party

so much to do in such a short period of time. 

A short thought of mine

i'm something you'll never be. 
the girl who will always love him. 
the girl that no matter what happens, i'll always care. 
i will always be considered the girl he left behind. 
i'll always be the one that changed for the better. 
the one that cried for nights on end trying to fix things
i will always remember the beautiful moments of love and compassion. 
its called being a teenager on end. 
the one teenager that can stand the loneliness of life!
i'm a teenage girl learning from love itself and expecting others to learn too..
life will only be as beautiful as you see it.
everyone has their own expectations of their own life!♥
&&beauty.

Weird Stuff About Me:

Alright so I've been thinking lately that I'd tell you a few things that is a bit weird about myself. I've told you stuff about me before; but, it was stuff that people would probably not know about me...This time, Weird stuff begins.

1. I have a phobia of Dry Skin.
---I will literally scream if someone touches me with dry hands and what not
2. When I go to the restroom, I cannot have anyone in the bathroom with me at the same time.
---I literally will get my phone out sometimes and turn the camera on to see up under the stalls to make sure I cannot see anybody's feet.
3. I do not believe in using Weapons.
---When I was little I watched my dad and his friend kill a helpless rabbit and skin it.  

I HATE:

1. Being told to shut up

2. Being told to calm down

3. Preps

4. Stuck up people

5. Loud people

6. People that talk too much

7. School.

8. The color Green

9. The color Yellow

10. Rocks

11. Dry Skin <- I've actually got a phobia of it. 

12. Spiders & it's a Phobia

13. Bugs

14. Robert Pattinson
15. People that expect you to do their work
16. People that don't do there own job
17. Skanks
18. Therapists that think they know from inside out
19. Sushi
20. FISH
21. Old Teachers
22. Faggots
23. Maggots
24. Flies
25. Wood Pencils
26. Crayons
27. Two Faced People

Confession to Myself

confession for myself to understand is...everyday, i go day by day thinking to myself "why me?" should i be? probably no; but, it's hard not to when you feel like there could be a chance of happiness. i admit; i lie in bed at night snuggled up to a teddy bear, crying my eyes out wondering if the next day could possibly be better than the one before.
sometimes, waking up in the middle of night, sitting in up in my bed with tears in my eyes from a dream, i was hoping would be true. to wake up and look around my room and my faith get shattered by a useless wish that my heart makes.
is it such a bad thing to wish for? to finally...get set with a guy that isn't going to judge me without temptation? it's always the same thing..i like a guy..they only like me as a friend or nothing at all. how can you shatter someone's dreams like that? how can you be such a shattering untrustworthy person? no emotion, no heart. you're nothing but cold as stone.
how am i supposed to have such power to overcome pain...if everyday is a rollercoaster of my life? it's downhill from here. this girl is stuck with tragedies and she just lets it all overcome her life.
-Patricia.